The adventures of Kid Loki and bacon.
“I missed you.”
quick sketch because I wanted some kind of reunion scene when Thor came back to life and it didn’t happen ):
I was working on something else but I just needed to get this out of my system
because little Loki needs hugs
Right in the feels.
WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME, MR GILLEN? WHY?
I already had an overabundance of feels about JIM and Loki.
Downloading Journey Into Mystery
Just FYI, in case if you were somehow thinking Piracy was the only option.
Thor is a movie about a dude taking the news he’s adopted very badly.
Okay, but no, seriously. I think the reason Loki resonated with basically fucking everyone - despite being such a little shit - is (in addition to Tom Hiddleston’s fucking face), is that he is obviously in so much goddamn pain throughout the entire movie. He’s fucking crying as he’s goading Thor into a fight.
Loki’s probably spent his… entire life feeling inferior to Thor because his talents lay in magic and illusions instead of beating the ever-living shit out of things with a hammer, feeling different for reasons he can’t entirely understand. So then he grows up, and finally discovers why, and it’s a reason he has no control over - it’s something he can’t change, he’ll always be a frost giant, and so he’ll never, ever be equal to Thor or even his father’s son, not really. And it’s kind of incredibly horrifying, too, because Loki was right to think Odin had to have a reason, because the fighting was over; he had no reason to steal a baby; the only reason Odin took Loki was because he thought he would be useful in the future. And Loki is small; in the comics Laufey had hidden him away because he was ashamed his son was a runt, so even among the frost giants Loki would have always been inferior.
And the way I see it, Loki didn’t expect the thing with the frost giants to go as far as it did, and so he ends up in a situation he wasn’t altogether prepared for (or even wanted), right after he finds out all of that. He’s in an incredibly fucked-up spot, mentally, so he kind of loses it and concocts an equally fucked-up plan as a last-ditch effort to prove that he does belong in Asgard, that he’s just as good as his brother. And by the time Thor shows up again, it’s all gone to hell, and Loki knows it, and he’s just making an increasingly desperate series of really poor decisions. And then he ends up hanging off the end of a staff over a wormhole, and suddenly he can do nothing but face the truth he’s been trying to deny since even before he discovered the frost giant thing: that he would never, ever have been as good as Thor in the eyes of his father, or anyone else in Asgard. And so he lets go, and after everyone is finished bawling their goddamn eyes out for the little shit, and he shows up in Avengers, he’s had a very unpleasant trip through a fucking wormhole of his own making, with plenty of time for that bitterness to turn to hatred, and if he would never be as good as Thor, why not just fucking embrace it?
And the worst part is even if Loki hadn’t turned out to be such a complex character, I still would have liked him more than Thor. He’s smart and talented and powerful: he was different, but not inferior, and that alone should have made him special. But because he grew up in a culture that valued strength over everything else, he was always second best, always inferior, doing “tricks” instead of fighting. And that is fucking awful.
EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS IS ACCURATE AND EVERYTHING IS FULL OF PAIN.
One day, I swear, I am going to figure out a way to articulate all my Loki feelings in one graphic. And after that day, I’ll finally be able to leave this fandom, because it physically hurts me to be so invested in someone so sad who’s more or less fated to be tragic and unstable forever.
that commentary. it hurt.
my heart really hurts because of that
this fandom is going to kill me one day
i just know it augh
So I might be watching Thor for the 3rd time in two weeks right now and yes, my brain’s also filled with like a million Journey into Mystery feels because augh Kieron Gillen’s writing and Kid Loki and the whole thing with him and Thor and all the feels right? Man. The feels I have about Loki, Thor and Kid Loki (although more Kid Loki than old Loki really) and that whole relationship.
Even with all this Loki stuff, I’m struck that Loki and Thor *are* super-close. Watching Thor, you never get the impression that Thor thinks that he’s better than Loki in the way that other characters perceive them. Loki is able to manipulate Thor exactly because he knows how Thor thinks - right at the beginning, he knows what to say to plant the idea to defy Odin and pop over to Jotunheim. In the same way, at the end, while Loki is dangling over the abyss, Thor *knows* his brother so well, that he knows exactly that Loki has decided to let go of the staff and fall before he actually does it. It goes both ways. These two brothers have probably spent nearly every waking moment with each other - learning together, playing together and fighting together. Who knows, they might even have shared a bedroom as kids.
Even in Avengers Assemble when Thor makes the “he’s adopted” comment - Loki’s still his brother. The “adopted” part may only explain why Loki’s not completely identical to Thor, or just that he’s got the additional issues with having found out that he’s adopted in one of the worst ways possible. Or perhaps, it’s just an excuse. The only reason that Thor could quickly throw out there that his brother, the brother that he feels to be his brother in his heart, could do something so terrible.
You see it in the deleted scene on the Thor dvd too - in the scene before Thor is about to be named King, you can see that Loki spots his brother’s anxiety and uses his tried and tested tricks to distract Thor from that worry. I want to see more of this relationship between Thor and Loki in the next Thor film.